Chronicles Of A Stay At Home Mom
by Mommy Hobbies
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In my napsack stash
I’m thinking of a bunch of cords, buried deep, and all attached to issues — issues in my life that I need to either have closure in or resolve. Somehow, life has a way of yankin’ my stinkin’ chain and unearthing these suckers. One by one and, sometimes, some by some they wiggle to the surface and I have to face them! But, “WHAT NOW”!!?
I can tell you that I’ve gotten really good at this. I’m so used to junk surfacing that I’m not even surprised anymore. Hah. Now, I just sit and wait. Sometimes it will be two months, three months or even longer, but it’s inevitable.
Recently, little “issues” have surfaced leaving me to either try and bury them again or just take it head on! Head on. I am not the same person I was when I moved here two and a half years ago. Head. on. baby. So, I take my idiosyncrasies and use them to better myself. But this stuff hurts. Sometimes it makes me feel like a failure, seeing these things in me. Having parts of me that are broken, underdeveloped or even battered, hurt…bad. Like a knee in the chin.