Chronicles Of A Stay At Home Mom
by Mommy Hobbies
In my napsack stash
A lot has happened over the past few weeks. My mind felt like it was being ripped open by a category 4 hurricane. Don’t you hate it when your thoughts consume you? I know I do. But somehow, I made it through some pretty rough patches. There is nothing like knowing “everything is going to be alright” and truly believe it! That’s how I feel right now. I know, deep down inside, everything is going to be ok.
The lesson I learned through the past few tests in my life was this: God answers our prayers through a process. Now, if I take a moment to think about what the word “process” means, I can’t apply the words: quickly, with haste, soon, or instant. Not at all, as a matter of fact, the word “process” is more closely associated with the words: lengthy, time consuming, waiting period, stages.
Yeah, aaannnd they all boil down to having patience. What is it with God and patience and me. Uhg.
Lately, it seems, every test that comes my way is much easier to handle. Must be I’m actually learning something after all?? I’m digging deep and finding a stronger me, way down. I like her. The stronger me gently pats my shoulders and whispers inspiring words when people insist on seeing me as horrible, mean or nasty. When they speak ill of me and treat me cruelly. Inwardly, I can smile and nod to myself and say, “self, they have no idea, do they?” It’s hard to accept, I think for anyone, that people choose how they want to see you! They really, truly do. Not sure why they want to see negative things, but they do. And if they truly are good people as they tout themselves to be, why aren’t they trying to “help” people like myself, with these obviously horrible and caustic qualities?
But going back to that feeling of calm and reassurance. It’s within me and I choose to gravitate to that, no matter what. Call me what you may, think of me how you wish, but truth is truth and it stands whether it happens to be twisted in your mind or not. Because no matter how hard you try to turn that flower into a trash can, it ain’t gunna happen. That’s the truth
I love the feeling of slowly gaining momentum. You know, that feeling of the wind in your hair, eyes shut, face to the sun, taking sharp turns faster than you should…then arriving at your destination, picnic basket in hand. Yeah, that’s me. I choose to dig deep, enjoy life and believe the positive because I know everything is going to be alright. Ever heard the saying, “slow and steady wins the race.”? Yep. Gotta remember that one, too.