Mommy Hobbies running: running running therapy
by Mommy Hobbies
In my napsack stash
**Warning. I am quite vulnerable in the post. Don’t judge. Thanks**
Do you ever cry when you run? Like, not from the burning in your lungs, but from a pain in your heart…like emotions. Yeah, that was me on Saturday. Running and sobbing. I don’t even know how I was breathing. The tears burst from my eyes at the 1 mile mark. Unfortunately, the lady in pink who was standing in her yard might have heard me, but I couldn’t bring myself to care. I needed to cry.
The cool part about my public display of over-emotion was that it was so, stinkin, refreshing. It was just me and the pavement, running away from my pain. Was I really running away though? I thought of my tears and their flight path. They were behind me. I was leaving my tears behind me and I couldn’t have felt better. Then I thought to myself, “I’m not running away, I’m running through my problem and overcoming it.” I couldn’t wait to get to my first challenging hill. I wanted to punish myself for feeling this way. Actually, I wanted to punish my feelings for making me feel this way. Of course, that first hill is where the biggest dogs (like Great Dane status) within a 5 mile radius live and they chased me up the hill. I really hate that.
What originally started out as a 6 mile run quickly evolved into an 8 miler. I mentally clicked my gears over for those two extra miles. My legs felt great, my lungs felt great and all the pressure I started out with was gone by mile 3. I just ran, big sloppy smile, bopping my head around to my music. It’s easy to look like a goof in the middle of nowhere. Don’t know what I’m going to do when my runs will have to be on the city streets. Lawd help me.
But, that was the first time I had ever cried during a run. I don’t feel ashamed that I cried, either. And I would proudly do it again if I had to.
Have you ever cried during a workout? Or have you ever cried on your own after working out because you started to confront certain issues within? I know I can’t be the only one.
Please, do share.