by Mommy Hobbies
In my napsack stash
4:30 this morning. The lights went on in my head.
I rolled over and felt the warmth of my husband beside me. I listened to my little girl breathing, making soft sleepy noises and in the other room I could hear Cy coughing in his sleep. Then I cried. Yesterday, a good friend of mine lost her husband in a horrible motorcycle accident. There couldn’t have been a greater loss for my home church. He was a gentle giant, with a sweet soul, a love for God and his family that people admired and in an instant he was taken from this earth.
It made me think about all I have going on in my life and I felt bad. All of my problems seemed so inconsequential compared to what my dear friend must endure. I’m sure the love for my family is very evident on my blog, I pour my life into them and I can’t imagine there would be a day when our little unit would have a piece missing.
It made me think about all the kind words people had to say about him. He was an amazing soul and he left such a positive impression on so many people. He lived a good, Godly life. I hope that I can leave half the mark on this earth he did.
It made me think…shame on me if I waste another day with anger in my heart toward another, closing someone off completely because they hurt me, staying bitter about any particular situation, refusing to forgive another, or being nasty to someone because they *deserve it*. Shame on me. I don’t want to do any of those things. Let me clear myself of any negativity and find a way to reconcile, make things right and be a light.
It made me think — what light am I shining on this earth, and, can people see it?
I love you, Bindy, may God give you continued peace and strength.